Boomerang 6 of 30 NaPoMo2015

I keep trying to throw it away

But like a boomerang 

It shot back

This idea so insane

The argument is always the same

This wild passion

That cannot be tamed

This temptation that is a sin

Feeling your touch on my skin

That slick grin

I can't let win me over

But this has to be over

Not just slower

I can't lower my standards 

I have to stand for what's right

Which isn't always the same as

As what we want

Or what's easy. 

Burned 12 of 30 NaPoMo2014

It's time
To pick up the matches
Among the ashes
Left from too many flames
Lit and re-lit
But not getting it quite right
And getting quite upset
About the outcome
Overcome with loneliness
It's no wonder
She set her love life on fire.

No Lo Sabes Pero- 8 of 30 NaPoMo2014

Te iba llamar
Quería escucharte
Mala idea

Out of Step 6 of 30 NaPoMo2014

I'm not sure I made the right decision
Actually from the beginning
It's like we're on the wrong foot
Trying to make it fit to the beat.
And even though we BOTH KNEW
We were out of step.
It just felt nice to listen to the music
Even though we BOTH knew we were not on beat
You beat me to it
And your phone call telling me you wanted to sing a different song
With me doing the oohs and ahhs
Instead of the lead duet.
Which lead to my anger
For once again letting a stranger
Strum on my heartstrings
But not finish a verse.
And worse...
I knew you were right.
Because we BOTH knew we were off beat.
And instead of beating around the bush
That phone call
Let me push you away far too easy
Maybe we could have met in the middle
When you tried again
I ran away from the repeat sign in the score
Those two dots bring you back to the beginning
But i guess I also ignored the breath mark
And the fact that most times there are second endings

Es Cara La Ilusión

Veo tu cara en todas partes
Descansando en Plaza España
Saliendo del metro
Comprando vino en AhorraMas
Veo tu cara en todas partes
Esa cara de cobarde
Que no pudo darme la cara
Veo tu cara en la luna
Cuando me asomo a la ventana
Para inhalar la aroma de nuestro pasado
Ya sabía que jamás me ibas a querer
Y no quería admitir
Que yo tampoco lo tenía tan claro
Esos pajaritos en el aire que te iba a pintar
Por eso no hay poema
De los momentos felices que vivímos
Porque ya tenía fecha de caducidad
Y no tenía porque meter más ilusión
En una relación
Destinada para meterla con la basura.

Un corazón

Un corazón ilusionado
Siempre queda arruniado
El tiempo siempre está contado
Con el universo contra su lado
Es como si este corazón
No merece ser amado
Termina amargado
El juego ya se ha jugado
Y ahi se queda el corazón abandonado.

¿Qué cuento?

Me encuentro contigo
En el cuaderno otra vez,
Que ya juré que nunca más lo volviera hacer.
Pero...
Pero al nacer lo que siento
El viento me lleva a recoger el lapíz
Y escribir en hojas
En vez de volverme loca
Rompiendo la cabeza contra la pared.
Esta historia no tuvo un comienzo,
Ni tendrá fin.
Pero en fin aquí estamos.
Semi-lectores/ Medio-escritores del relato.
Atrapados en un atasco de sentimientos,
No sé si miento
Cuando te digo que no me importa
Nuestro estado: Nada.
Menos mal que sé nadar
Y me quedo, de momento, sin ahogarme,
Y sin hogar para mi corazón.
Que ya sabes que es un poco tonta,
La misma prueba pendiente.
Y esto no depende de ti.
Sino de mis inseguridades
Y cómo está la situación...
Me quedo con el cuento no contado
Y el cuaderno lleno de poemas
De lo que no pudo ser.

Sola

Semi enamorada
Abandonada
Soledad sola
Soledad acompañada
Acompañar soledad
Sol La Ti Do
Dormir Sola
Latido en singular
Sin Lugar
Sola
Dos silabas
Una persona
Sola.

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Reciclaje

¿Por qué somos tan tontas?
Para tropezar sobre los mismos agujeros en el camino
sabiendo que nos va a lastimar
Pero no alcanzamos rechazar
La oportunidad de volver a ese mismo lugar.
Hay que tragar el orgullo
Ir con lo suyo
E ir a dejar la basura.

(Non) Surprise Ending

I don't want to take out this notebook
I don't want to bring out this pen
I don't want it to hit the paper
Because then it means that
These feeling are palpable
That this sadness is real
That I can't hang onto the hope
That this is reasonable
And things can go back to the way they were.
But these weeks of silence
Have blurred together
Tethering my nerves
Taking over all my swerving swirling thoughts.
I don't want to write these words
Because it hurts
Because I have too many poems like this
And I wish I didn't have a laundry list
Of ghost stories to haunt me
Taunting ideas
Watching flaunting couples pass by
And as I get older
It gets harder to start
And even harder to fall apart at the seams
When things seemed to be fine
But I'm just a fool
For thinking I could have a happy ending
When life has been sending the message
That it's table for one
For quite some time now
I don't know how to protect myself
From the wealth of emotions that come from my soul
Dumbing down
Breaking down
Drowning in fond memories
And what could have been
I could have been happy
Instead of scribbling rhyming syllables
On paper dribbled with tears
Full of fear
That this movie has been on repeat
But I guess in my head
I like to play pretend
And believe I don't know the end of the story.

Repeated Course

Being honest with myself
Feeling broken and broke
Just the butt of another joke
Taking it old school to new school
Because you fool
You didn't pass the 50 billion times you took the test
Putting to rest naiveness
R.I.P trust
And this busted heart
Start again
You know the drill...

Historia Repetida NaPoMo 28 of 30

No cambia la historia
Sólo cambia el nombre
De los hombres
Buscando mujeres fracasadas
Abandonadas por el amor
Aguantando dolor
De heridas no merecidas
Malentendidas
Con lágrimas en los ojos
De los pocos momentos
De intentos de felicidad logrados
Esperanzas matados
Con cada cicatriz

No cambia la historia
Sólo cambia el nombre
Abre los ojos a la realidad

Side Salad- NaPoMo- 24 of 30

You´d rather have me
For lunch
Then throw away the napkin
Than to make something happen
I'm not okay with that
So hat's off to you
For being so honest
But honestly,
Did you think that I'd accept
What you offer
Even though often now
I wonder what I'm worth
That's the worst thing
You could have done to me

Unwed NaPoMo 22 of 30

Always the bridesmaid
Never the bride
Or even a chance to stride
In that direction
Missing the affection the comes with such vows
Flooded with questions
Of How
And Why
Increasing sighs
No cure in sight
Or even something
That might suffice
Just too nice
Or too something else
Good for only a fling
He says "You turn me on
But not for a relationship"
Sinking the ship of hope
To be able to cope
Living in a world
With a dope
Who would even say that

He Forgot- Haiku- NaPoMo- 20 of 30

Happy Birthday Babe
Is that too much to ask for?
Would have made my day.

Dos Seres Tentados NaPoMo 16 of 30

La noche que nunca llegó
Ella tampoco estaba muy convencida
Por tomar las medidas que afectaban su vida
Y se quedaron los dos con las ganas
Andando en caminos contrarías
Dejando sólo huellas de conversaciones de medianoche
Mientras el enfoque cambiaba.
Él continuaba su historia de amor
Ella a su esquina pensando en su valor
No muy enredados
Y un poco confundidos
El ruido de las ruedas
Los pensamientos movidos
Lo que hemos entendido
Ella busca una relacion sincera y profunda
Él una noche de placer
No parece tener mucho sentido
Volver a la situación en que (no) se hayan metido.
Él tiene morbo y ninguna otra intención
Ella se queda mirando el telefono
¡Maldita tentación!

False Charm- NaPoMo 15 of 30

We could have really started something
But what you really wanted
Was my friend
Just an illusion
To cause confusion
You were the one that lost out in the end

My Other Half- Haiku 10 of 30

He has got no name
Yet he dictates my feelings
Invisible strife

NonDisney- Haiku- NaPoMo 7 of 30

You could have been him

Happily ever after

I'm not the princess

Just After Midnight- NaPoMo- 2 of 30

The walk of shame
It was the walk of shame
Because I was ashamed
Ashamed that I yet again didn't listen to the voice inside my head
Pointing out the very visible cliff I was about to fall off of
I guess that's because that's what I'm good at...
Picking up the pieces
Shattered hopes that were bloated
And sugar coated with to fit the fantasy.
See the pattern?
Turning me into some old shrew
Screwing up a chance at contentment
Left only with resentment, lack of fulfillment
And a lonely soul
A hole in my being
Seeking to be whole
Cue the song that makes me feel better or worse
As I search for my purse
And get on my way
Out of the way
It's a long ride home

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