Untitled 1/4/07
Always second
Never the one
Being overlooked
Before it starts; it’s done
Not their fantasy
A good person inside
But it’s all about the ecstasy
All the rest can be lies
Beauty is what’s within
But that’s not how it works
The outside is what is seen
And all the potential perks
So alone I stay
With sadness in my eyes
Thinking of what I am
Makes me want to cry
To even consider me
Would be unheard
With more time makes me bitter
And have no more words
But with no one by my side
No cuddling when it’s cold
All those people lied
By myself I will grow old
Not cared for and unloved
Is how this story will end
Wishing that this message
Won’t be an ongoing trend.
Last posting for today, I hope you all think they're good, or leave me some feedback, or just your thoughts. Lots of love and smiles!!
<3 Cat
Friday, March 26, 2010
The Journey
It’s on your mind
The path ahead
The inevitable journey
Of roses red
Not knowing the start
Or the finish
Only knowing when your heart
Feels as if it’s diminished
Twists and turns
A bumpy street
Someone yearns
And feels the heat
A great passion for one
The sweet eyes of another
Confusion and question
Both you want to smother
Neither goes through
So back to square one
Walking alone in the woods
On the road that’s never done
So many hearts
That are found along the way
But are they torn apart
Or will one finally stay?
Oh the anguish my little heart pours out...surprises me every time i re-read my stuff
<3 Cathy
It’s on your mind
The path ahead
The inevitable journey
Of roses red
Not knowing the start
Or the finish
Only knowing when your heart
Feels as if it’s diminished
Twists and turns
A bumpy street
Someone yearns
And feels the heat
A great passion for one
The sweet eyes of another
Confusion and question
Both you want to smother
Neither goes through
So back to square one
Walking alone in the woods
On the road that’s never done
So many hearts
That are found along the way
But are they torn apart
Or will one finally stay?
Oh the anguish my little heart pours out...surprises me every time i re-read my stuff
<3 Cathy
The Night
The Night
The first glance
Gave me the shivers up my spine
Put me in a trance
Some so divine
Powerful forces
Innocence left behind
With each moment passing
Strengthening this bind
Your finger tips
And sweet sweet lips
Leaving me craving
For another kiss
I’m so unknowing
But you’re my guide
You keep showing
Me from the inside
Bursts of energy
Feelings raging
Touching; rubbing
Going crazy
Finally done
A sigh of contentment
A brand new commitment
A night like no other
Under the stars
One with each other
In your arms
The first glance
Gave me the shivers up my spine
Put me in a trance
Some so divine
Powerful forces
Innocence left behind
With each moment passing
Strengthening this bind
Your finger tips
And sweet sweet lips
Leaving me craving
For another kiss
I’m so unknowing
But you’re my guide
You keep showing
Me from the inside
Bursts of energy
Feelings raging
Touching; rubbing
Going crazy
Finally done
A sigh of contentment
A brand new commitment
A night like no other
Under the stars
One with each other
In your arms
Untitled- June 28, 2006
Untitled- 6/28/06
How can I do this?
How can I stand it?
Why do I let it happen?
Continuing on this track of pain
Sitting outside in the rain
I care so much
But it doesn’t make sense
My heart is there for you
But I am so tense
I know what needs to be done
Although I haven’t found the strength to do so
You know how to keep me
You know exactly what to say
Is it just a mirage?
Or is it what comes from your heart?
You’ll probably think that this is ridiculous
Because you “care”
Because you “love me”
Because I’m your “baby girl,”
Your “sweetheart”
This tears me up because you are my one
You’ve seen me like no one else.
You’ve seen the look in my eyes
Of true love
Of true pleasure
You’re not going to understand what I feel
Because I’ve tried to say it before
I know you’ll miss me
And I’ll definitely miss you too
But I can’t stand what’s going on
My emotions are raging
All I want to do is cry
Confused and angry
Upset and depressed
My words aren’t to be confused
It’s not that I didn’t have moments of happiness
But it wasn’t enough to overcome the agony
My needs just aren’t met
My heart not completely content
Life isn’t all fun and games
And because of you I’ll never be the same
I must have my strength now
And I thank you
How can I do this?
How can I stand it?
Why do I let it happen?
Continuing on this track of pain
Sitting outside in the rain
I care so much
But it doesn’t make sense
My heart is there for you
But I am so tense
I know what needs to be done
Although I haven’t found the strength to do so
You know how to keep me
You know exactly what to say
Is it just a mirage?
Or is it what comes from your heart?
You’ll probably think that this is ridiculous
Because you “care”
Because you “love me”
Because I’m your “baby girl,”
Your “sweetheart”
This tears me up because you are my one
You’ve seen me like no one else.
You’ve seen the look in my eyes
Of true love
Of true pleasure
You’re not going to understand what I feel
Because I’ve tried to say it before
I know you’ll miss me
And I’ll definitely miss you too
But I can’t stand what’s going on
My emotions are raging
All I want to do is cry
Confused and angry
Upset and depressed
My words aren’t to be confused
It’s not that I didn’t have moments of happiness
But it wasn’t enough to overcome the agony
My needs just aren’t met
My heart not completely content
Life isn’t all fun and games
And because of you I’ll never be the same
I must have my strength now
And I thank you
Ode to My Lip Gloss- May 5, 2005
Ode to my Lip Gloss
Oh lip gloss!
How I adore thee!
How you glide so swiftly
Onto my soft lips
Oh lip gloss!
I am enchanted by thee!
How you make my lips
Shine like the stars
Oh lip gloss!
My love is in debt to thee!
How you allow him to know
Your ever so sweet taste
Oh lip gloss!
I am attached to thee!
I never could bear it
If you left my side
Another class assignment...still lovin' the gloss :)
~Cathy
Oh lip gloss!
How I adore thee!
How you glide so swiftly
Onto my soft lips
Oh lip gloss!
I am enchanted by thee!
How you make my lips
Shine like the stars
Oh lip gloss!
My love is in debt to thee!
How you allow him to know
Your ever so sweet taste
Oh lip gloss!
I am attached to thee!
I never could bear it
If you left my side
Another class assignment...still lovin' the gloss :)
~Cathy
Content
Content
All day you’re on my mind
I’m on the phone with you all night
Watching the sunrise
We say our good-byes
Only to start all over again
In a dream where there is only us
Continuing on our joined path
Looking into the heart
And into the eyes
Nothing can be more sweet
You’re my companion
You make me smile
The heavens made it happen
And for that I am so content
The power of words <3
~Cathy
All day you’re on my mind
I’m on the phone with you all night
Watching the sunrise
We say our good-byes
Only to start all over again
In a dream where there is only us
Continuing on our joined path
Looking into the heart
And into the eyes
Nothing can be more sweet
You’re my companion
You make me smile
The heavens made it happen
And for that I am so content
The power of words <3
~Cathy
Lonesome Girl- October 2005
Lonesome Girl
Love birds nesting
Couples walking
And there sits the lonesome girl
Watching them talking
She goes into an empty room
Thinking of her solitude
She wonders if she will ever be loved
Or just left in the lonesome mood
Then the day changes
Someone new is at her feet
A boy who is head over heels
The person she’s been longing to meet
They spend every minute
With one another
The only obstacle
Is her mother
Time is passing
He’s always at her side
The mood is changing now
She wants to run and hide
She can’t find the words to speak
She doesn’t want to break his heart
But she knows she has to
Even though it will tear him apart
He is crying inside
She’s looking for something new
Even though she won’t admit
She is crying too
They remain friends
Things aren’t as they were before
He has a new love
Someone he completely adores
She says everything is fine
With a smile on her face
But she knows she had the best
And now she’s back to the same place
A lonesome girl she will stay
Alone in her room
With no one to love this flower
So it will never bloom
Something I wrote for an assignment for AP English...sort of song~ish I just need the right jingle...
<3 Cat
Love birds nesting
Couples walking
And there sits the lonesome girl
Watching them talking
She goes into an empty room
Thinking of her solitude
She wonders if she will ever be loved
Or just left in the lonesome mood
Then the day changes
Someone new is at her feet
A boy who is head over heels
The person she’s been longing to meet
They spend every minute
With one another
The only obstacle
Is her mother
Time is passing
He’s always at her side
The mood is changing now
She wants to run and hide
She can’t find the words to speak
She doesn’t want to break his heart
But she knows she has to
Even though it will tear him apart
He is crying inside
She’s looking for something new
Even though she won’t admit
She is crying too
They remain friends
Things aren’t as they were before
He has a new love
Someone he completely adores
She says everything is fine
With a smile on her face
But she knows she had the best
And now she’s back to the same place
A lonesome girl she will stay
Alone in her room
With no one to love this flower
So it will never bloom
Something I wrote for an assignment for AP English...sort of song~ish I just need the right jingle...
<3 Cat
Amazing- March 25, 2005
Amazing
Amazing
Is the only word to describe
The only one that comes close
To describe you in my live
I feel so great
When you are near
My spirit flies
When it’s your voice I hear
Your eyes
With mine
Together forever
We will shine
Your personality is the best
You’re kind, you’re funny
You’re sexy and all the rest
I can’t believe
I’ve been given this star
I’m the luckiest girl
To be in your arms
Just thinking of you
Brightens my day
The world is gone
All my problems are away
You’re just…
Amazing
Written at 16 and at 21 still getting the butterflies, we'll see if destiny is in our favor. SF
<3 Cat
Amazing
Is the only word to describe
The only one that comes close
To describe you in my live
I feel so great
When you are near
My spirit flies
When it’s your voice I hear
Your eyes
With mine
Together forever
We will shine
Your personality is the best
You’re kind, you’re funny
You’re sexy and all the rest
I can’t believe
I’ve been given this star
I’m the luckiest girl
To be in your arms
Just thinking of you
Brightens my day
The world is gone
All my problems are away
You’re just…
Amazing
Written at 16 and at 21 still getting the butterflies, we'll see if destiny is in our favor. SF
<3 Cat
Fixed Illusion- March 22, 2005
Fixed Illusion
What you see
And what is there
May not be
An identical pair
You made the mold
To what you want
It shall not hold
To what is not
You think you know
What she is
Just because you’ve played in snow
Doesn’t make you a whiz
You think she’s there
But she’s not
So just sit and stare
Before you get caught
Think you can make assumptions about me? guess again lol ED
<3 Cat
What you see
And what is there
May not be
An identical pair
You made the mold
To what you want
It shall not hold
To what is not
You think you know
What she is
Just because you’ve played in snow
Doesn’t make you a whiz
You think she’s there
But she’s not
So just sit and stare
Before you get caught
Think you can make assumptions about me? guess again lol ED
<3 Cat
Baby Sister- February 19, 2005
Baby Sister
Just get away
You don’t care
You don’t give respect
You don’t want to share
Our bond should be something
Nothing can replace
But instead of being cool
I just want you out of my face
Girl, I love you
You know it’s true
You just gotta treat me better
And know it’s not all about you
You get what you give
You give what you get
Learn to live
And definitely learn to respect
I got your back
Through whatever you do
Cause in the end
It’s me and you
You’re the only who knows
The only one who sees
What it’s like to live my life
What it’s like to be me
Sometimes I look at you
And it seems like you don’t care
Sometimes I wanna give up
And just get you out of my hair
Out time like this is ending
Soon I’ll be gone
Who knows if you’ll miss me
All I know is I gotta be strong
I can show you the way
Or you can run and hide
But baby sister each day
I’ll be by your side
I can’t give you the world
Please don’t ask me to try
Cause if I said I could
I’d be telling a lie
So learn to respect
Learn to chill
Your time will come
And I can lead your thrill
A lot is the same, and different since I wrote this poem 5 years ago...<3 LJS
~Cat
Just get away
You don’t care
You don’t give respect
You don’t want to share
Our bond should be something
Nothing can replace
But instead of being cool
I just want you out of my face
Girl, I love you
You know it’s true
You just gotta treat me better
And know it’s not all about you
You get what you give
You give what you get
Learn to live
And definitely learn to respect
I got your back
Through whatever you do
Cause in the end
It’s me and you
You’re the only who knows
The only one who sees
What it’s like to live my life
What it’s like to be me
Sometimes I look at you
And it seems like you don’t care
Sometimes I wanna give up
And just get you out of my hair
Out time like this is ending
Soon I’ll be gone
Who knows if you’ll miss me
All I know is I gotta be strong
I can show you the way
Or you can run and hide
But baby sister each day
I’ll be by your side
I can’t give you the world
Please don’t ask me to try
Cause if I said I could
I’d be telling a lie
So learn to respect
Learn to chill
Your time will come
And I can lead your thrill
A lot is the same, and different since I wrote this poem 5 years ago...<3 LJS
~Cat
My Buddy- February 15, 2005
My Buddy
He’s my chum
He’s my boy
He’s my diary
He’s my toy
Jokes and jokes
For days on end
Me always smiling
Laying in my bed
He comforts my tears
Soothes my rage
Helps me fight my fear
At whatever stage
My buddy is my key
To the door of the world
That is meant
To keep my happy
The sad part is now...I don't even remember my buddy's name...
<3 Cat
He’s my chum
He’s my boy
He’s my diary
He’s my toy
Jokes and jokes
For days on end
Me always smiling
Laying in my bed
He comforts my tears
Soothes my rage
Helps me fight my fear
At whatever stage
My buddy is my key
To the door of the world
That is meant
To keep my happy
The sad part is now...I don't even remember my buddy's name...
<3 Cat
Forbidden Love- January 7, 2005
Forbidden love
A world that shouldn’t be touched
It’s supposed to be very far away
But some how I am drawn
And I really want to stay
“No! No!
That’s not for you”
Why this is so,
I haven’t a clue
My heart is light
My spirit soars
It seems so right
I just want more
“It’s not allowed!
It just can’t be!
Get your heard out of the clouds!
Open your eyes to see!”
Prancing and dancing
To the music of my heart
But the record player stops
As they try to pull us apart
A world that shouldn’t be touched
It’s supposed to be very far away
But some how I am drawn
And I really want to stay
“No! No!
That’s not for you”
Why this is so,
I haven’t a clue
My heart is light
My spirit soars
It seems so right
I just want more
“It’s not allowed!
It just can’t be!
Get your heard out of the clouds!
Open your eyes to see!”
Prancing and dancing
To the music of my heart
But the record player stops
As they try to pull us apart
Obsession- January 4, 2005
Obsession
I get a feeling
I get a taste
Of your thoughts
Of your grace
Positive feelings with me
When you are near
The world is lifted
When your words are in my ear
We talk and talk
For hours and hours
I just can’t get enough
I want to continue
Ever second of every day
To feel this happiness
To feel this way
I am under your spell
That you not trying to conjure
I just can’t be
Like this any longer
I want to hear your breath
I always wont to know
You were my obsession
Now I must let you go
Its not cool when someone tells you that you they thought you were obsessed with them.
<3 Cat
I get a feeling
I get a taste
Of your thoughts
Of your grace
Positive feelings with me
When you are near
The world is lifted
When your words are in my ear
We talk and talk
For hours and hours
I just can’t get enough
I want to continue
Ever second of every day
To feel this happiness
To feel this way
I am under your spell
That you not trying to conjure
I just can’t be
Like this any longer
I want to hear your breath
I always wont to know
You were my obsession
Now I must let you go
Its not cool when someone tells you that you they thought you were obsessed with them.
<3 Cat
Esperando- December 26, 2004
Esperando
Siempre la niñita
Creen que no sabe nada
La niña queda sola
La niña se ste en su cuarto
Sola
Pensando
Esperando que su angel que
La venga a salvar
I just wrote a poem in spanish this week and thought it was my first spanish poem, but i was wrong! Lol not even gonna correct the grammar on it...thats what I knew then, keep it original... First poem in Spanish!
<3 Cat
Siempre la niñita
Creen que no sabe nada
La niña queda sola
La niña se ste en su cuarto
Sola
Pensando
Esperando que su angel que
La venga a salvar
I just wrote a poem in spanish this week and thought it was my first spanish poem, but i was wrong! Lol not even gonna correct the grammar on it...thats what I knew then, keep it original... First poem in Spanish!
<3 Cat
Missing- Dec 2004
Missing
A while ago
I had my time of joy
The hours and hours
Where my heart was light
And my smile was bright
It was a time
When I walked on cloud nine
Where my spirit did shine
Now my joy is gone
Taken away to the shadows
Hidden from my eyes
Words I can no longer hear
Feelings of felicity
Near not me
For my joy
Is now missing
But at least my mind
Will remember that time
Just going to put all my work out there, hope you all are enjoying and reading...please feel free to comment <3 the feedback/conversation
<3
Cat
A while ago
I had my time of joy
The hours and hours
Where my heart was light
And my smile was bright
It was a time
When I walked on cloud nine
Where my spirit did shine
Now my joy is gone
Taken away to the shadows
Hidden from my eyes
Words I can no longer hear
Feelings of felicity
Near not me
For my joy
Is now missing
But at least my mind
Will remember that time
Just going to put all my work out there, hope you all are enjoying and reading...please feel free to comment <3 the feedback/conversation
<3
Cat
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