A Message 19 of 30 NaPoMo2014

To all the men
Who were too cowardly to love me
To those who made heartbreaking
Into a pastime
And mistook my heart
For a baseball
Playing catch for a while
Then throwing it
To left field
Or hitting a grounder
Out of nowhere
To those who were magicians
Illusionists
Making me feel important
For just a moment
To those who are missing out
On all I have to offer
To those who passed up on me
Because I don't fit into their blow up doll mold
To those who left me hanging
Thank you for not sticking around
And blocking my way
From happiness
The ability to love
Me, myself and I

Quiero

Quiero escribir frases hermosas
Páginas llenas de mariposas
Y las cosas dulces de la vida

Quiero sacar las sonrisas
Para no dejar triunfar las lágrimas
Y olvidar las penas de ayer.

Quiero que mi cuaderno evolucione
De su sombrío existencia
Y que sea el sol de mañana

Quiero dejar de ser la niña triste
Quiero aprovecharlo todo
Y quiero que esta vez sea de verdad

Minor Setback

I'm restraining myself from complaining
As I'm painting butterflies over thunderstorms
Normal people wouldn't have to do this.
More than half of them would be thrilled to just sit back and enjoy the ride.
And not have to hide behind weak smiles and facebook photos.
How funny is it that just like a rollercoaster,
As soon as you find the top of your utopia
You are ripped away
Wind pushing you back
Until you're back to the bottom
Knocked on your bottom
Working your way up to the top of your joy?
I know without the drops you are just plateauing,
But what if you plateau on perfect?
Without change there is no progress
But damn, if the process of progress can happen without having to regress
This mess of a life would be so much simpler.
I know I've sung these blues before,
I need to take this frustration
And use a bit of imagination that will help me inch back up again.
A setback is a setup for a comeback
And I'm ready to come back to a place where I can call myself Cathy.
I mean happy.
Happy to be in my own skin.
Heart not hurting for
*What hurts the most*
The things it wants but can't have
But it still hurts though,
Trying to put this selective vision away from what's missing
And onto what I might be missing in front of me.
Forgive me for dwelling on this not so compelling rant
But I think spelling it out to the world
Will help me get up from being down
Because when you're down
You only just seem to go deeper
Along the steep path
Losing sleep
As negative vibes creep their way into your pillow
With each weep.

Turn the Beat Around- NaPoMo- 30 of 30

Today I need to write a happy poem
Enough of the crappy
Sappy stuff
Stuck in a rut
Ruin the routine
Let's smile today
Be brave
And pave the yellow brick road
Up the mountain you're climbing
Find the silver lining of the story
In a starry sky
Life is wonderful
Believe it

One Picture- My Daughter's Wedding

Another one From the Writer's Block - "If you could take one picture, what would it be? what is in it? Who is in it? What does it mean to you?"

One picture
Una foto
One picture
One representation of a moment in time
Captured
Trapped in digital pixels
Held prisoner by nostalgia and reminiscence
Essentially life on paper
If I could only take one picture
It would show the texture of my existence
A beautiful girl dressed in white
Her smile up to her ears
Because this is the happiest moment of her life
Her mother with proud eyes
And an attitude
That her fortitude
Has been compensated
And emulated by this joyous occasion
My whole universe
In a frame, a family
F- Fate, Freedom, Fabulousness
A- Absolutely Amazing Amor
M- My marvelous Masterpiece
I, I can't believe I'm so...
L-Lucky
Y- Why, I wish I could drink this happiness forever
Generations together
My mother, her mother
Tias, Nieces
Daddies, brothers and sons
All in one room
Sharing one moment
As the lens captures
Mi familia.

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Haiku- Sun Gods

Now there is sunshine

My spirit's rising again 

Warm thoughts bring big smiles

Haiku- Beats

Headphones drowning sounds

Eighth notes skipping in my head

Today's a good day