Awkward- ten word poem 15 of 30 NaPoMo2015

Social networking
doesn't make you
a social butterfly,
does it?

First Date- NaPoMo 12 of 30

I'm not sure if I should speak
But this awkward silence is so loud
It's making my ears ring
Do you go first?
Do I?
Is it the fact that we're shy
That makes my insides feel so weird
Because it's all that I feared
Looking stupid
Like the thought of cupid actually being real
Making this tangible sentiment I feel
Like a cage
As I try to keep my composure
Avoiding overexposure
At this impressionable stage
Maybe your joke wasn't funny
Maybe we weren't as compatible
As we thought we were
Causing this voiceless stir
Making a blur of the moment
Hold it.
I really hope I'm not the only one
Coming undone
By the lack of words
In this conversation
I can't explain my irritation
Or understand my demand
For sound around this situation
Umm...
Yeah...
Yep...
And nervous laughs come after
This lack of banter has paved the way
To only having one more thing to say...
"Let's not do this again, k?"

Penny for Your Thoughts

Stupid, stupid girl
Allows the space in her head
Where her brain is supposed to be
To be filled with nonsense feelings of superficial comfort
Comfortable
Curious
Crazy
Dangerous
It's dangerous  to walk around dark pathways with your eyes closed
You never know what's going to come out of the shadows
Naïve
Obscene
Unseen
On the silver screen
Eyes are glued
To misconstrued tales of amorous encounters
That are not going to happen in my lifetime
Feeling so empty as the credits roll
And the characters have their dreams come true
It's like I'm missing the adapter or something
To the ultimate connection
So what in the world is wrong with me?
Swirling skewed ideas
Of obtaining or sustaining relationships
Without refraining from giving it your all
There really should be training for this stuff
Sifting through the fluff
Looking at the hand that's been dealt
Deciding which bluff to call.
And just remember you're not playing strip poker
Even though with each unsuccessful game you lose a piece of yourself
No tip for the dealer
But if anyone else were to give their two cents
They would say, "What are you thinking?
You're beautiful
So dismiss those who need the submission
Or download of your grace.
Face your fear of being near spinsterhood
The most ridiculous notion in the neighborhood.
Watch for those who can't appreciate your light.
Fight to be happy.
But make it happen in the right state of mind.
You are one of a kind.
So don't roam the streets blind
To the fact that you're pretty amazing.
No question, comma, or quotation,
Just period.

Shy?

Just started writing and this came out, perhaps to be recorded at a later date but for now, it is, what it is. 

When I tell people I’m shy

The first thing I see is a laugh

Or that look that has “you’re kidding me, right?” written all over it.

I mean, I see where they’re coming from.

Perhaps I am a bit confused.

A shy social butterfly?

I think that’s right on the button.

Just as I walk the line as a gringa-latina,

I can reside in a room  where I have a place in the corner,

And in the center, under the spotlight.

I mean, I am the girl who has sung the national anthem twice,

La Presidenta,

Dorothy from the Wizard of Oz,

And hopped on planes and trains to who knows where.

But there’s no place like home

Where I can be away from the world

With no eyes to judge my thoughts or actions.

Lights, Camera, Action,

And I transform into whoever I need to be.

Bee. A busy bee buzzing around

And still sweet like honey.

Honey, I still stand by what I say and I am one shy girl,

But, I’m not gonna lie.

 It’s complicated.