Frozen 11 of 30 NaPoMo2015

Say something!
Do something!
React!
We all think we'll be the hero when the time comes to step up against the bad guys.
Oh well if that happened to me I would...
I can't believe that happened, I would've...
That's horrible you should've...
Well you could've...
In the moment when the monster camouflaged as something... someone harmless
Decides to strike
Someone hit the pause button on empowerment
Fear froze my womanly strength
Froze my reflexes
Froze  my mind
This is not the kind of thing you can really prepare for.
But when you're violated in the middle of a crowded subway car
Stuck, struck, stroke, choking for air
All alarms going off on the inside
But still frozen with fear on the outside
Its so unfair, you want to stand up for yourself.
It's over it happened, but never again
She thought until the next time she ran into a similar beast
Iced response cannot compute what is happening
Say something!
Do something!
React!
Don't just stay frozen
Don't stay broken
Don't let your spirit be stolen.

The Awakening

What happens to our soul when a shadow is cast over our life?
Removing the light that can brighten up a day at the sight of hope.
How does one cope with the darkness and growing strife?
Not long ago, I wouldn't have had an answer
Just putting a show
Being a dancer on stage.
Containing the rage that in reality kept  me in a cage.
Craving normality,
Whatever that is.
Going through each formality, but failing to remedy my ailing spirit.
It's not something simple that you can fix.
Not to say, I have all the tricks,
But the moment I decided to switch my plight for a fight to make things right
All of those nights became a little more clear.
Steering myself back on to the road
After a series of crashes
Getting up from the ashes of being burned from all sides
Enjoying the ride
Because I woke up from my nightmare
Into a dream
I'm taking control
Climbing out of the hole in my heart
A new start.
I'm alive
I'm awake.
I'm on my way.