Brat

Brat

Patience is a virtue
That is not in my possession
Not waiting in angst
Is my obsession

Attention I yearn for
Often not there
Then the nerves begin
This is the scare

Often this trait
That people look down
I want things now
Then people frown

Your focus on me
Is something of pleasure
So don’t put it off
Let’s share this relationship we treasure

Words on Paper

Words on Paper

Let this ink flow from my pen
And give words of inspiration
A light in a life
Full of devastation

Words of peace
Words of love
Give us strength
To rise above

Pen and paper
A window to my soul
Escape from reality
My mind on a stroll

Let these verses
Be ones that touch your heart
Take you away for a while
Then back to the start

Sweet Stranger

Sweet Stranger

Sweet stranger
New friend
Budding romance
The signals send

Mirando la luna
And the rising sun
Todos mis pensamientos
Know something’s begun

Butterflies in my tummy
Chills down my spine
Giggles for hours
When you start to rhyme

The path ahead
El camino
It will take us
A nuestro destino

A stranger no more
A new friend to old
Many many stories
Will be told

Dejo estos versos
Para continuar otro día
Y ver esta historia
Aparecer en maravilla

Not My Prince

Not My Prince

An intriguing journey
In search of a treasure
Something for yearning
What one can’t measure
How can it be?
The one that is desired
Just runs away
And hides
While a certain gem
A diamond in the rough
Isn’t for them
Doesn’t make the cut
Life is a game
In circles it goes
Wished to be tamed
And filled with woes
The heart does not see
It can only feel
It just needs to be
With what is real
I have his heart
But someone else has mine
The confusion begins to entwine
Reaching for me
Pulling away
Out come the tears
But I cannot stay
How ironic
Something wanted
Comes from something plutonic
The eyes looked into
The lips that are kissed
Different from
Those that are missed
What the hell?
Am I under the wrong spell?
All the dreams
Are right within reach
But it all seems
Too close
Not just right
Not the fairy tale
He’s prince charming
Just not mine
So back to square one
To see how it is done

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An innocent soul
Or maybe she wasn’t
That night finally came
Where the man had done it
A fairytale prince
A hopeless romantic
All of that changed since
That evening so frantic
She was the girl
With no one to hold
So she looked for ways
Ignoring what she was told
So desperate for affection
Is hurting inside
She despises her reflection
Wants to run and hide
Her hero comes
On a galloping horse
Little did she know
He would change his course
Clouds overhead
Something is wrong
They’re now in the bed
This “prince” is strong
For her body he lusts
But she won’t give in
He wont take no for an answer
And so he begins
This girl had been untouched
By unloving hands
Still couldn’t give in
To his sexual demands
He sees her face
And doesn’t continue
Then starts the confusion
Of this venue
He apologizes with his voice
But not with his eyes
Now its her choice
To leave or stay with this demise
Stupidity arises
As she ponders the latter
Affection is her desire
And that is what matters
Will the sacrifice be made?
Can she live with this deal?
Probably for now
Until she can spin the wheel

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Always second
Never the one
Being overlooked
Before it starts; it’s done
Not their fantasy
A good person inside
But it’s all about the ecstasy
All the rest can be lies
Beauty is what’s within
But that’s not how it works
The outside is what is seen
And all the potential perks
So alone I stay
With sadness in my eyes
Thinking of what I am
Makes me want to cry
To even consider me
Would be unheard
With more time makes me bitter
And have no more words
But with no one by my side
No cuddling when it’s cold
All those people lied
By myself I will grow old
Not cared for and unloved
Is how this story will end
Wishing that this message
Won’t be an ongoing trend.


Last posting for today, I hope you all think they're good, or leave me some feedback, or just your thoughts. Lots of love and smiles!!

<3 Cat

The Journey

It’s on your mind
The path ahead
The inevitable journey
Of roses red

Not knowing the start
Or the finish
Only knowing when your heart
Feels as if it’s diminished

Twists and turns
A bumpy street
Someone yearns
And feels the heat

A great passion for one
The sweet eyes of another
Confusion and question
Both you want to smother

Neither goes through
So back to square one
Walking alone in the woods
On the road that’s never done

So many hearts
That are found along the way
But are they torn apart
Or will one finally stay?


Oh the anguish my little heart pours out...surprises me every time i re-read my stuff

<3 Cathy

The Night

The Night

The first glance
Gave me the shivers up my spine
Put me in a trance
Some so divine
Powerful forces
Innocence left behind
With each moment passing
Strengthening this bind
Your finger tips
And sweet sweet lips
Leaving me craving
For another kiss
I’m so unknowing
But you’re my guide
You keep showing
Me from the inside
Bursts of energy
Feelings raging
Touching; rubbing
Going crazy
Finally done
A sigh of contentment
A brand new commitment
A night like no other
Under the stars
One with each other
In your arms

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How can I do this?
How can I stand it?
Why do I let it happen?
Continuing on this track of pain
Sitting outside in the rain
I care so much
But it doesn’t make sense
My heart is there for you
But I am so tense
I know what needs to be done
Although I haven’t found the strength to do so
You know how to keep me
You know exactly what to say
Is it just a mirage?
Or is it what comes from your heart?
You’ll probably think that this is ridiculous
Because you “care”
Because you “love me”
Because I’m your “baby girl,”
Your “sweetheart”
This tears me up because you are my one
You’ve seen me like no one else.
You’ve seen the look in my eyes
Of true love
Of true pleasure
You’re not going to understand what I feel
Because I’ve tried to say it before
I know you’ll miss me
And I’ll definitely miss you too
But I can’t stand what’s going on
My emotions are raging
All I want to do is cry
Confused and angry
Upset and depressed
My words aren’t to be confused
It’s not that I didn’t have moments of happiness
But it wasn’t enough to overcome the agony
My needs just aren’t met
My heart not completely content
Life isn’t all fun and games
And because of you I’ll never be the same
I must have my strength now
And I thank you

Ode to My Lip Gloss- May 5, 2005

Ode to my Lip Gloss

Oh lip gloss!
How I adore thee!
How you glide so swiftly
Onto my soft lips

Oh lip gloss!
I am enchanted by thee!
How you make my lips
Shine like the stars

Oh lip gloss!
My love is in debt to thee!
How you allow him to know
Your ever so sweet taste

Oh lip gloss!
I am attached to thee!
I never could bear it
If you left my side

Another class assignment...still lovin' the gloss :)

~Cathy

Content

Content

All day you’re on my mind
I’m on the phone with you all night
Watching the sunrise
We say our good-byes
Only to start all over again
In a dream where there is only us
Continuing on our joined path
Looking into the heart
And into the eyes
Nothing can be more sweet
You’re my companion
You make me smile
The heavens made it happen
And for that I am so content


The power of words <3

~Cathy

Lonesome Girl- October 2005

Lonesome Girl

Love birds nesting
Couples walking
And there sits the lonesome girl
Watching them talking

She goes into an empty room
Thinking of her solitude
She wonders if she will ever be loved
Or just left in the lonesome mood

Then the day changes
Someone new is at her feet
A boy who is head over heels
The person she’s been longing to meet

They spend every minute
With one another
The only obstacle
Is her mother

Time is passing
He’s always at her side
The mood is changing now
She wants to run and hide
She can’t find the words to speak
She doesn’t want to break his heart
But she knows she has to
Even though it will tear him apart

He is crying inside
She’s looking for something new
Even though she won’t admit
She is crying too

They remain friends
Things aren’t as they were before
He has a new love
Someone he completely adores

She says everything is fine
With a smile on her face
But she knows she had the best
And now she’s back to the same place

A lonesome girl she will stay
Alone in her room
With no one to love this flower
So it will never bloom


Something I wrote for an assignment for AP English...sort of song~ish I just need the right jingle...

<3 Cat

Amazing- March 25, 2005

Amazing

Amazing
Is the only word to describe
The only one that comes close
To describe you in my live
I feel so great
When you are near
My spirit flies
When it’s your voice I hear
Your eyes
With mine
Together forever
We will shine
Your personality is the best
You’re kind, you’re funny
You’re sexy and all the rest
I can’t believe
I’ve been given this star
I’m the luckiest girl
To be in your arms
Just thinking of you
Brightens my day
The world is gone
All my problems are away
You’re just…
Amazing


Written at 16 and at 21 still getting the butterflies, we'll see if destiny is in our favor. SF

<3 Cat

Fixed Illusion- March 22, 2005

Fixed Illusion

What you see
And what is there
May not be
An identical pair

You made the mold
To what you want
It shall not hold
To what is not

You think you know
What she is
Just because you’ve played in snow
Doesn’t make you a whiz

You think she’s there
But she’s not
So just sit and stare
Before you get caught


Think you can make assumptions about me? guess again lol ED

<3 Cat

Baby Sister- February 19, 2005

Baby Sister

Just get away
You don’t care
You don’t give respect
You don’t want to share

Our bond should be something
Nothing can replace
But instead of being cool
I just want you out of my face

Girl, I love you
You know it’s true
You just gotta treat me better
And know it’s not all about you

You get what you give
You give what you get
Learn to live
And definitely learn to respect

I got your back
Through whatever you do
Cause in the end
It’s me and you

You’re the only who knows
The only one who sees
What it’s like to live my life
What it’s like to be me

Sometimes I look at you
And it seems like you don’t care
Sometimes I wanna give up
And just get you out of my hair

Out time like this is ending
Soon I’ll be gone
Who knows if you’ll miss me
All I know is I gotta be strong

I can show you the way
Or you can run and hide
But baby sister each day
I’ll be by your side

I can’t give you the world
Please don’t ask me to try
Cause if I said I could
I’d be telling a lie

So learn to respect
Learn to chill
Your time will come
And I can lead your thrill


A lot is the same, and different since I wrote this poem 5 years ago...<3 LJS

~Cat

My Buddy- February 15, 2005

My Buddy

He’s my chum
He’s my boy
He’s my diary
He’s my toy

Jokes and jokes
For days on end
Me always smiling
Laying in my bed

He comforts my tears
Soothes my rage
Helps me fight my fear
At whatever stage

My buddy is my key
To the door of the world
That is meant
To keep my happy


The sad part is now...I don't even remember my buddy's name...

<3 Cat

Forbidden Love- January 7, 2005

Forbidden love

A world that shouldn’t be touched
It’s supposed to be very far away
But some how I am drawn
And I really want to stay

“No! No!
That’s not for you”
Why this is so,
I haven’t a clue

My heart is light
My spirit soars
It seems so right
I just want more

“It’s not allowed!
It just can’t be!
Get your heard out of the clouds!
Open your eyes to see!”

Prancing and dancing
To the music of my heart
But the record player stops
As they try to pull us apart

Obsession- January 4, 2005

Obsession

I get a feeling
I get a taste
Of your thoughts
Of your grace
Positive feelings with me
When you are near
The world is lifted
When your words are in my ear
We talk and talk
For hours and hours
I just can’t get enough
I want to continue
Ever second of every day
To feel this happiness
To feel this way
I am under your spell
That you not trying to conjure
I just can’t be
Like this any longer
I want to hear your breath
I always wont to know
You were my obsession
Now I must let you go



Its not cool when someone tells you that you they thought you were obsessed with them.

<3 Cat

Esperando- December 26, 2004

Esperando

Siempre la niñita
Creen que no sabe nada
La niña queda sola
La niña se ste en su cuarto
Sola
Pensando
Esperando que su angel que
La venga a salvar

I just wrote a poem in spanish this week and thought it was my first spanish poem, but i was wrong! Lol not even gonna correct the grammar on it...thats what I knew then, keep it original... First poem in Spanish!

<3 Cat

Missing- Dec 2004

Missing

A while ago
I had my time of joy
The hours and hours
Where my heart was light
And my smile was bright
It was a time
When I walked on cloud nine
Where my spirit did shine
Now my joy is gone
Taken away to the shadows
Hidden from my eyes
Words I can no longer hear
Feelings of felicity
Near not me
For my joy
Is now missing
But at least my mind
Will remember that time

Just going to put all my work out there, hope you all are enjoying and reading...please feel free to comment <3 the feedback/conversation

<3
Cat

Untouchable- December 10, 2004

Untouchable

When we met
There was something about you
I couldn’t understand
Why I was feeling this way
As time went on
The attraction became stronger
Laughing together
Flirting with each other
To world just seemed
To stay still
As the days went on
Thoughts of you filled my head
Then the time came
When my dreams were shattered
Someone else has your heart
And I never mattered
We still talk
And we still laugh
We go on walks
We have our plans
I enjoy this time
Because it’s with you
But my heart aches
Because I can’t have you
So I sit and smile
There with “glee”
And I wait for the moment
When you are no longer untouchable

Oh the "oh you have a girlfriend?" thing really sucks...lol
~Cat

Falling Fast- December 8, 2004

Falling Fast

I sit and wait for you to come
My heart beats to the rhythm of the drum
In your presence I feel so good
You've made me smile
When I never thought I could
We have such a bond
It's the best
We help each other
Through our lives test
You've make me smile
You've heard my cry
You make me feel special
When I want to die
You're on my mind
You're in my head
I only wish
You were with me in my bed
To hold each other close
Your skin; my skin
Something I long for
Again and again
I can talk to you through many moons
And when you have to leave
It’s ALWAYS too soon
My heart is falling fast into your hands
I know you'll keep it safe
At least as best as you can
The distance between us
Makes it so hard
I strive for your touch
I long for your kiss
You're the one I want
You're just perfect
My heart is falling fast into your hands
Keep your spirit up
My sweet sweet man

The Stage- December 4, 2004

The Stage

The lights in your face
The sweat on your brow
It all will embrace
The show you know how

Hours and hours
Trails of tears
It’s like you’re on a tower
And height is your fear

Dance each step!
Keep up that smile!
It’s the round of applause
That makes everything worth while

Say the words!
Show emotion!
This is your all
Your life devotion

It all builds up for the time
You can wait to turn the page
For that moment you shine
While on stage


I miss my stage :(
~Cat

My Everything- 12/3/04

My Everything

Baby you’re on my mind
All day and night
You lift the world off my shoulders
You make me forget everything
When we talk its about you and me
With my heart and my eyes
Its you I see
Sweetie pie I love you so much
I just can’t explain why
It’s almost like you’re my lullaby
I can’t stop smiling
When you’re in my head
I just want you
To be able to hold me close
To be in your arms
Is what I want most
You have my heart and soul
You are my everything

Looks like you got 3 for one today. Enjoy...COMMENT!

~Cathy

The Mirror- 11/27/04

11.27.04The Mirror
The mirror
It is everyone’s toy
It can be a horror
Or it can be a joy

What I see
And what is there
It can’t be
What a scare

Every pound
Every imperfection
Is what is found
In this reflection

Each time I look
Makes me cry
Why can’t this monster
Just go and die

The mirror
It is everyone’s toy
Always my horror
Never my joy


Insecurity at its best :P

~Cat

Tarnished Angel- 11/24/04

Tarnished Angel

Always proper
Always nice
Always following
What everyone thinks is right

She fits the mold
Everyone can see
She has a hold
Of what she needs to be

She wants out
But she can’t tell
Cause everyone will pout
And send her to hell

Finally she sees
Some sort of escape
She takes the “cheese”
And crosses the “tape”
The outside wasn’t as she thought
She wasn’t impressed
Just glad she wasn’t caught
Cause of all the stress

Her charming prince
Turned out to be an ass
And because of that night
This diamond turned to brass

That delicate flower
From before
It is now gone
It is no more

She sees the light
She’s had her cry
But this tarnished angel
Has to live with this lie

11.24.04
10.20.04

Don't really want to talk about this one, but i guess if i am posting my poems I should post all of them. I may or may not elaborate later....

~Cat

My Prize- November 24, 2004

My Prize

Living my life
Without a clue
Then I got it
When I found you

You make me smile
You make me blush
You’re worth all the while
You’re my crush

To be in your arms
To look in your eyes
You have such charm
You are my prize

Hearing your voice
Seeing your face
Makes my heart jump
All over the place

Your sweet kisses
Give me such joy
I just tingle to know
You are my boy

To be in your arms
To look in your eyes
You have such charm
You are my prize
~November 24, 2004~

My heart sits here waiting for every moment its able to flutter.....

~Cat

Success- July 29, 2004

Success

What is success?
Is it being the best?
Is it passing the test?
Or finding the treasure chest?

Success for you
Is it the same for me?
What fills YOUR heart
Does it make ME happy?

Different views
In the eyes of the beholder
Is not news
Once we get older

We play the game
All our lives
But it’s not the same
Once we take that dive

What is success?
Is it being the best?
Is it passing the test?
You can take your guess

ahh dealing with parents gotta love it.

~Cat

Change- July 29, 2004

Change

The world we see
The world we know
Has such glee
Has its own glow

As shift in the stars
Movement of the moon
Makes everything bizarre
Changes everything so soon

The storm that comes
Tries to pull us apart
I hold you close
With my heart

If one day
The stars realign
That will be the day
Everything will be fine

~Cat

The Rose- April 2002

The Rose

The rose is a symbol of love
For all the world to see
To show someone you care for them
Or just fill them up with glee

The rose is a symbol of youth
All you have to do is look
The rose gives you something
You won’t find in a book

The rose is a part of the people
Each and every one
It is a part of me
As well as a part of you
Each day a new rose is born
Looking bright and new

Oh English classes what work you bring out of me....

~Cat

Opening

The new spot for all my cool flow....

~Cat